Gratitude in Times of Darkness

A few weeks ago, I sat in the grocery store parking lot and looked for a podcast episode to listen to on the drive home. I had just taught yoga, and I was feeling light and happy. I settled on Sarah Prout’s podcast episode “You are Worthy”. It was eighteen minutes long, just long enough to finish on the drive home.

Sarah discussed the importance of feeling worthy, worthy of success, of happiness, of joy. Driving home, I was silently checking off my mental list of all of the things I am grateful for in my life. I was feeling so heart full.

I slowed down as I approached our home and turned on my indicator. I saw the car as it hit me, head on.  As my truck flew from the highway, the interior filled with smoke, and everything went white. I thought in that moment, I am dead. 

The truck came to rest in a ditch. The white settled, and I realized that the “smoke” was from the deployed airbag. My brain had not caught up to what was happening. It all seemed so surreal. Sarah’s voice, loud now, declared that we must understand our worthiness to be strong mother’s for our children. In a panic, I turned to look for my boys. They were not in their seats. I remembered that they had begged to stay a few days with my parents. They were safe.

I moved my body, amazed that everything worked as it should. As I unclipped my seatbelt and stumbled from the truck, my heart filled with so much gratitude. People had stopped and were assisting the other driver, directing traffic, and waiting for emergency personnel to arrive. Tears streamed from my eyes.

I am thankful for seatbelts.

I am thankful for my truck.

I am thankful for the kindness of strangers.

I am thankful for this life. I get to live another day. I get to hug my husband (who was now running down the driveway to me). I get to Facetime my boys and marvel over their precious faces and sweet voices.

I get another day. I get another day to live my best life. I get another day to follow my purpose. I get another day to live my life in abundance.

And, so here I find myself, taking steps towards living in alignment with my purpose, following my passion, and living each day in abundance.

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If you have had a moment that truly shifted your perspective, please comment below. I would love to hear about how you are living each day in abundance.

6 comments

  1. Hi Rachel,
    I read your post on The Tribes FB thread which lead me here to your blog. This may seem silly however, your blog & this particular entry has moved me in a big way today. Thank you for creating this blog. I don’t even really read blogs, but I did read yours today & my heart is full of gratitude that you were true to yourself & created this amazing blog. You are an inspiration! Thanks for adding to my life. Much love!!!💕💕💕

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  2. Hi Rachel! I found your post in the Bliss page, and I am so thankful I did! I was meant to see this post so thank you for sharing your story with us!

    My mom is stage 4 cancer, and have whatever time I have with her has brought me to a place of live my purpose, and also a bit of fear. I am so thankful for my mom and her life that I want to change mine for the better!!!

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